May

I have been anticipating this month with an undeniable sense of sadness.  The twins were due May 19th.  Its so hard to think that, had they stayed with me, I might be able to hold them already.  I feel so much pain when I think about their little lives cut so short.  They were only 12 weeks old - I never got to feel them move inside me.  I never got to hold them in my arms, or smell their sweet babyness.  

But I loved them.  

And I know that they are so happy that I will be able to hold and love their baby brother.  

I would like to share a poem my little brother wrote for me after I lost the babies:

Two Guardian Angels 

by DRH 

Made in Love

 Two precious Souls

A Mother, none more deserving

A Father, more proud than any

Never knowing God's Will

Revealed to us unexpected

Yet by faith kept believing, His plan would be revealed to us

The expected Joy of holding them, now lost

Now a new Joy shown to us

Their precious purpose now given

They are Soldiers and Angels of God

With watchful eyes they gaze

Protecting all who love them

Now in Faith, we can see

Their purpose much bigger, That only which God could see

Those two precious Souls

Our Guardian Angels

Keeping watch over all of us and those who are still to be